feelings of the night

 I miss you. I know we will never date agin. but I miss you even more than you think. I'm sorry I know I need to move on because it has been three months, but it feel like it has been three sentries. my heart missis you. my heart feels heavy. learning to live without you is very hard to do . it is one of the biggest regrets in my life. You are a pice of me I never want to live without.... and now I am being forced to do so. I promise I'm trying to move on. Some one told me to go play the field of love but it doesn't work. They told me to go to party's. that doesn't work. they tell me get really busy so you have no room to think about him. that doesn't work. Nothing works. I just want you... I want you so bad. I want your voice saying my name agin. you picking me up in that little blue car. I want to meet your parents and tell them how special you are.I want to live the rest of my life with you. And I know that is a long time to say when your only 17  and don't know what is going to come to you the very next day. But there is something about you. Babe you gave me a since of hope. you gave me a sense of safety. No matter what happened or still does, you will be able to get what ever you want out of me. I would do anything you ask. I want to tell you too many things. I want to here so many stories yet I haven't herd.. I wanna hear about you and your friends. I want to go back to that night where we played pretend . you said you wanted to work in larkenberg, a little cabin with your friends.I said how lovely that would be and to have a wife to cook you a meal. we talked about the family we would raise. now for 17 that is along time awaise but I could picture it so clear it didn't feel like a haze. I miss your time. Your presence is something I'm craving like a drug withdrawal from an addiction. the longer I go with out it the crazier I feel. The stronger I miss you. Yes, I see you in the halls. That is the little hit I get from my crave, but it doesn't hit the same. I miss talking to you, like hearing your voice and looking into your gorges brown eyes. they sparkle.. or I mean they did. back when I had your love. now you only have mine. I promise I have that locked into a time capsule of my heart and mind. I can't let him go . I can't . I can't. I can't . I can't I feel as thogh I'm screaming I LOVE YOU I CAN'T LET YOU GO OR OUT OF MY MINE BABE. I CAN'T STAND THE FACT THAT YOUR NOT MINE. I CAN'T STAND LIFE WITH OUT YOU. I WANT YOU BACK . PLESE PLEESE PLEEESE PLEEESE PLEESE ( as I will start to sob) Let me show you how perfect we are. I will show you how I will not be clingy. How I will not overthink like I did in the past. I won't compare to what others have. I won't rush anything ever agin. BABBY please take me back ( tears once agin role down my eyes) You are the person I will ever take. I am willing to wait for you. But I don't know if my heart won't.'t break. 

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