Was it love.?

     Maybe if I close my eyes, maybe if I hold on tight it won't disappear tonight. maybe it will all have been a dream and we will continue this fairytale love story Sean. Maybe if I could go to a time machine I would go back and tell my self everything. I would never would have broken the attachment to our string. I have often thought about you up at night remembering how much of a gentlemen you were each night. were able to make me feel safe and smile so bright but the twinkle in your eyes is what made everything feel right. No it was the softer voice you used with me when I said something silly that now on a cold day just makes me chilly. "Well was it love?" Why do you ask I can only describe this feeling I felt so fast. As you look at them and see everything planed, nothing looks bland. You suddenly appreciate every small thing. You look at the as they are your home. They make you feel like you're never alone. I say that as sometimes he never picked up his phone but I know I was a thought in his mind as he was in mine. Time flies when you spend time with them or in a group. You never worry of them to cheat because you trust them with your life never wanting to delete. You never would delete anything that you had with that person. Yes it isn't always happy you have down sides too. That is when you try to figure out the solution together as one not two people.Answering your question once agin, yes I was in love with him. 

    "Then why did things end ?" It ended on a cold winter night when I realized that we had the same problems each time. the same problems that never could be fixed with both of us working hard. My brain personally suffering and needed some time to heal from afar. My eyes flooded with tears and by heart burns but I still had to do what was best for me to learn. I knew what I wanted and his future planes didn't match with mine. Maybe it was the Saturday nights when I would sit and cry knowing that we couldn't have together a night with out checking with your parents and not ever knowing when or where while I'm crying on the floor agin that Saturday night. My mind started to reace my feet starting to pace working that  he had fallen out of love. Why my worries started to show through as I watched you starting to fall out of love so I ended things so It would hurt as bad on my fall. I didn't want to be the one who fell first because I knew that after we broke up it was gonna hurt. It didn't work out because of the crazy life planes of Him and I both busy and rushed with life that we most of the time didn't have time. We barely had time to spend you and I and if we did we also had to do home work or families that require our time.I'm going to ask